本当にむかつく。

全部の事かんがいすぎだから。

人間関係とか、卒業旅行とか、勉強と試験や。

も、疲れていたんだ。

「も、あきらめて。どんなかんがいでも、希望はない」

そゆ事だ。

Hope, like a candle, was gently blown away.

Leaving a murderous intent that even I shiver in fear of.

There was no more room for me to step in. I didn't even get to decorate my own room. Everything was in the mercy of those who had $$. My parents.

They keep arguing where to put my bed. I already told them, that I know how to put my stuff, and I know what to buy. They just wouldn't listen.

"Trust me, you wouldn't want to put your bed like this" was all they said.

My mum urge me to go for grad trip. Although she reminded me that I didn't have enough money. So I told her that at most, I wouldn't go. At least the money can be used to buy the furniture that I want, not what SHE wants. She then start saying that she still have money to buy furniture for me, though before that she kept complaining that the renovation fees exceeded her budget. How contradictory, and by no means comforting.

I was at crossroads, choosing between the Japan trip and the Korea trip. Just so coincidental, they fall on exactly the same dates, going and coming back. How fate has toyed with my feelings, as I was thinking that I can go for Japan trip and then to Korea or vice versa if the dates were different. Now, I am only mad at myself for not being able to come to a decision.

I can't forgive myself, for being poisoned by the actions that others did, no matter unintentional or intentional. I just hope that the poison would not seep too deep into the chambers.

In the end, there is still the realization that I only have plenty of bad points to be reminded of.

Maybe that's why,

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 11:00 PM