Cry Me Out

To know that the top priority is something else, gives me a losing feeling.

Yet I can understand why it is prioritized, that makes me feel even worse. because I have no right to be angry or can do anything abt it.

My heart is tearing apart, w each thought like a machete hacking at my heart.

It was so bad that I contemplate to end my life. Yet I can't do so, for I m bound by the oath to live.

curse my mouth to sprout out promises that now bound me to life.

I just want to die n escape from the crushing pain that's suffocating me.

Just let me die please.

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 5:34 PM

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

►Idiotic Me

What do you call a person who dive into a situation when he/she knew that it would end up being hurt?

--> An idiot.

That's me.

I sometimes do wonder why I am so stupid. I knew about it. I knew I shouldn't get too involved.
But somehow, I got carried away.
The result? Being emo now and then.

Too stupid.

Totally brainless.

Maybe I shld go heartless next.

I wonder if they know.

How I wish I had never met with the situation. How I never met all of you.

Because now, tears are already dropping.

Take note that I did not use Eye Mo for this.

Labels: Miscellaneous

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 9:27 PM

Thursday, December 16, 2010

►venting my frustration

1) An idiot colleague

She wayang a lot to the manager that she has a lot of work when she is just simply too slow. Got her way in the end, as I was trfed to her dept to help her. She threw work that she didn't want to at me, and felt threatened when I finished it fast. Resort to cheap tactical strategies such as giving me the most difficult report to type in an effort to make me feel that the job is taxing, throwing me a job that require the combined efforts of TWO people. And in order to make sure that I dun hate her (when I alr do), tried to suck up to me by offering food or tidbits, strike up a convo (when I didn't want to talk to her alr).

That's nice, you bitch.

2) An idiot manager.

Wonder how she came to that post when she couldn't understand that different task take different amount of time and productivity is not just a mere set of statistics. Favouritism of the idiot colleague as mentioned above really allows doubtful thoughts of her capability. Wanting to help ends up showcasting her ignorance in the job scope of those under her management. To allow the benefit of doubt, she probably believe the words of the wrong person.

To face them everyday? I probably need to be a cat and have nine lives, cuz I just wasted 8 lifetimes trying to ignore and cope through the politics.

I am in dire need of enlightenment to survive the last lifetime I still have.

Labels: Grumblings

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 9:39 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2010

►It doesn't pay to be a good person.

sometimes I just wanna help pple.

And it is really disheartening that pple dun appreciate it at all.

I give myself the stress to make sure I follow through with what i said I would do.

What's the point?

It doesn't pay to be a good person. It just doesn't when u are being taken for granted.

I hate the world.

Labels: Grumblings

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 3:00 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

►All is an illusion

Stop presenting illusionary fragments when it is never meant to be.

It makes it harder to accept reality.

And it only breaks my mind down.

The wishful thinking has to stop.

Labels: Miscellaneous

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 11:20 PM

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

►Ridiculous morning

I woke up just in time for tuition.

After all, the tuition is in Tampines, so I wore shorts.

And my mum go bonkers seeing me wearing the shorts out for tuition.

She said that I must dress prettier when I go out. At least wear jeans.

WTF?

It's so damn hot outside and you want me to wear jeans for a 1 1/2 hour tuition?

Be pretty for who to see? It's not like I know any abasan around in Pasir Ris or Tampines, and are so familiar with them that they can see or talk to me.

And she goes on and on asking me to change those shorts.

She even dig out all my past shorts.

She was the one who told me those shorts are TOO short and some made me look fat. Now she says, those are OK.

Being on time becomes being late for 20 mins for that tuition all because of a pair of shorts she deem unfit for wearing out.

And after I chided her, she even say she feels that 好心没好报.

This is the most ridiculous morning I had in year 2010 at this damn house.

Labels: Grumblings, Home

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 7:44 PM

Sunday, June 13, 2010

►New Camera

Money is really powerful. It can change my mum's mindset.

From a person who always saves money, to one who knows how to spend money.

Seriously, my mum shocked me today.

She wanted to go to the PC show to buy a new camera.

You know, everytime I went to the IT fair, she always abstain from buying anything. Except for mouse. (-__-)

Now, she wants a camera?

I must say, it is all thanks to this tai-tai friend of hers.

Always chio-ing her out for food fairs and expo fairs.

My mum even bought a rock-style belt for herself. And she thinks its cool.

( -________-)"

She finally give it to my cousin after me "blasting" at her about it. My goodness.

Ah, whatever. The one with the money has the last word.

Just that she is nagging at me now to teach her to use the newly-bought Sony digicam. Hmph.

Labels: Miscellaneous

You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away; 9:58 PM